Monthly Archives: May 2020

Hello old fear I thought I had Rid myself of you Through positive imagery Stuffing down the  Anxiety Old witchcraft Superstitions  That held me hostage for so long. When good things happen When all is silent And there is finally peace I close my eyes And there you are It’s as if you can’t helpContinue reading “Old Fear”

I listened to a song today That I hadn’t thought about in 11 years That’s about a third of My life And it made me a little teary eyed The same feelings tear at me That did the same  All that time ago And I always wondered What will I be like at 25? 30?Continue reading “Quarantine Memories”

Moments frozen in time Taken in places I never imagined myself traveling A string of lights over a cobbled street An ancient river Or just a thank you sign noticed from hundreds of feet up. Shells of past lovers When we imagined that we Were happy And flattered ourselves with our own hope. Small appreciations,Continue reading “Photo Library”

Taking shelter outside the cafe after walking the river Seine two days in a row/excited about the general smoke in the air and the fact that I won’t be chastised for smoking a cigarette/the streets not quite ancient but old enough for stories are patch-worked together by rivers, perfectly cubed rustic buildings/ thousand-year-old churches andContinue reading “Paris”

My twenty- something: If your hair runs rampant Through couch cushions Ring-ed White knuckled hands Like mine, Suffocates the sleeping imposter I am sure is lying beside You Leave it Let it run Let yourself run And I will not chase you I will However Watch you come back To the porch in my mindContinue reading “Twenty Something”

Intuitions combining Consciousness into the realms Of what may be tomorrow And ideas Polarities Founded, unfounded,  Unwrapped, unraveled,  Re-twisted Into girl-scout knots I find my belly Woman Firm in some places flexible in others and I am not reckless And now It does not define me Whether or not It is Or is not AndContinue reading “Connections”

Breaths of Timshel Choices you me vinyasa and simply to be and one and two sequences then me heart pounding grounding Timshel choices and a flow sudden burst of energy and light padding back and forth between breaths and  yogis done. wine and laughter ecstatic calls because I  never thought this could be  me theContinue reading “Yoga High”

And so we began with bright nineteen-year- old eyes mirroring muddied toilet-water- girlish raucous. And later when I sat next to  him dreamy glazing eyes  he said “I know you’re drunk because you’re sitting so close to me” And thereafter the quiet unsure reserved pursed  lips finally relaxed into a  snicker and sly grins paintedContinue reading “October 2017”

It’s weird not to be missed like really missed or to be loved like really loved and by that I mean the missing that  ruins your life obsessive bombardment at  2am high  most likely and loved like I want to destroy  you kind of love isn’t it weird how the whir of a half- functioningContinue reading “Uncomfortable Silence”

I don’t even know where to begin about Hawai’i, so I will begin here, at 2AM, when I have had a few hours to marinate back home and miss it already and miss the people and life and culture and noises and air. The construction signs on the freeway that state “Drive with Aloha.”  TheContinue reading “First Hawaii Experience”